40 Days & 40 Nights

Ash Wednesday was yesterday and for a whole week I couldn't decide what I was going to give up for Lent. I contimplated several things; meats, sweets, a specific group of people (lol, but very serious), even drinking. Yet, what I finally settled on was smoke.. in all forms cigarettes, blacks, capones, cloves, hookah and all in which I neglected to mention.

With that being said I had an extremely rough day yesterday with my Ciggies. You never really notice how much you depend on something until it's no longer available to you. ONLY...it is available!!!!...it's at the store... but I'm trying to teach myself decipline and obedience through fasting.  Pastor Coats has us fasting solid foods on Wednesdays, participating in Lent Monday-Saturday, and reading specific scriptures
     SN: He gave 7,000+ members a weekly/daily prayer itenerary...
            MY PASTOR IS SO EFFICENT

There are so many reasons why I needed to quit, but just in case a "Ciggie Hater" is reading this I won't give you the gratification of knowing some of the down falls of smoking that you'd only know if you were a smoker. I will not allow you non-smokers to have another thing to add on to the anti-smokers intervention that people sometimes do to their friends and loved ones.
     SN: I hate when people do that!
But yesterday was Day 1 and I passed with flying colors. I went to Friday's to drink with my homegirl Lay and my homeboy Markie. For all smokers you know how hard I was trying not to even think about smoking...LLS...  As a smoker when you drink it is almost natural to have a ciggie right after or even during. They kinda go hand in hand. But you know what??? I wasn't even tempted. Did I think about it??? Yea, but I wasn't tempted to stop and buy a pack or anything. I popped a piece of gum in my mouth and kept on driving.

After Friday's I went to visit a friend, BAD IDEA. I was really tempted to retreat to the 7-Eleven after a certain someone pissed me off to new heights. I would've done what I usually do when I break down, I would buy a pack, grab a couple out for another rainy day and toss the rest of the box out the window. (What a Flippin' Waste of Money) But I went against my better judgement, said a quick prayer, sent it up to God, and took my butt home. Thank God 4 Self Control!

I'm determined beyond all means to make it through this season. Studies say that it takes anywhere between 21 and 30 days to break or create a habit and I have 40 days to break this habit and kick it to the curb.